Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Generations of woman.





I was privileged to take a photo of 'Five Generations of Women' shortly before my 93 year-old Grandmother passed away last year. The photo, shown below, features the hands of my Grandmother, Mom, Sister, Niece and Great-Niece. While I can't take credit for the idea, I was so happy to have had the suggestion & capture this moment. It inspired a friend of mine to do something similar which turned out so beautiful and a special keepsake prior to her father's passing.

Grandma, some ninety plus years, sat feebly on the patio bench. She didn't move, just sat with her head down staring at her hands. When I sat down beside her she didn't acknowledge my presence and the longer I sat I wondered if she was OK.
Finally, not really wanting to disturb her but wanting to check on her at the same time, I asked her if she was OK. She raised her head and looked at me and smiled. 'Yes, I'm fine, thank you for asking,' she said in a clear voice strong. 'I didn't mean to disturb you, grandma, but you were just sitting here staring at your hands and I wanted to make sure you were OK,' I explained to her.
'Have you ever looked at your hands,' she asked. 'I mean really looked at your hands?' I slowly opened my hands and stared down at them. I turned them over, palms up and then palms down. No, I guess I had never really looked at my hands as I tried to figure out the point she was making. Grandma smiled and related this story: 'Stop and think for a moment about the hands you have, how they have served you well throughout your years.
These hands, though wrinkled shriveled and weak have been the tools I have used all my life to reach out and grab and embrace life. 'They braced and caught my fall when as a toddler I crashed upon the floor. They put food in my mouth and clothes on my back. As a child, my mother taught me to fold them in prayer. They tied my shoes and pulled on my boots. They held my husband and wiped my tears when he went off to war. 'They have been dirty, scraped and raw , swollen and bent. They were uneasy and clumsy when I tried to hold my newborn son. Decorated with my wedding band they showed the world that I was married and loved someone special. They wrote my letters to him and trembled and shook when I buried my parents and spouse. 'They have held my children and grandchildren, consoled neighbors, and shook in fists of anger when I didn't understand. They have covered my face, combed my hair, and washed and cleansed the rest of my body. They have been sticky and wet, bent and broken, dried and raw. And to this day when not much of anything else of me works real well these hands hold me up, lay me down, and again continue to fold in prayer. 'These hands are the mark of where I've been and the ruggedness of life.
But more importantly it will be these hands that God will reach out and take when he leads me home. And with my hands He will lift me to His side and there I will use these hands to touch the face of Christ.' I will never look at my hands the same again. But I remember God reached out and took my grandma's hands and led her home. When my hands are hurt or sore or when I stroke the face of my children and husband I think of grandma. I know she has been stroked and caressed and held by the hands of God. I, too, want to touch the face of God and feel His hands upon my face.



My mom sent me this story with the picture. So precious.



Faith

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Discipline of Witness



I just heard the most fantastic sermon on witnessing. Here is a gathering of my notes-


We were enslaved in sin, now God owns us. Meaning when I feel fear of man coming upon me I can push it away with the knowledge that I am not my own.


It doesn't matter if I evangelize in a certain way or if I make Christianity look good! God does the work! I am just planting the seed. What ground it falls into is all up to Him who made us. I don't know about you but that is a comforting thought!


One of my greatest temptations with sharing the Gospel is that I desire to rush things. I want it in my timing and I really really want to see results quickly! Sometimes we just don't see any result at all and that is the way our Father wants it. We must remember that God intended us to speak out but the way he uses our speech it is up to Him and we can trust that it is already going according to His plan.


If you think about it when someone is in the army they will spend most of their time in training right? Oh yes, the fighting may be exciting and worthwhile but he/she has to train and work very hard. It is the same way for us! The prospect of witnessing to someone is appealing but if we don't focus on the way we handle the relationships we have at present how will we glorify God when we meet someone in need?


We should never feel mundane in our daily life! We are training and preparing for the work we do for God. Honestly I want to practice as much as I can.


Many times I have told myself not to do something a certain way and then failed miserably. I have found that trusting my own heart is NOT wise at all. It must be purified and molded by God's hands only. Not by my own!

XoXo

Faith Mae

Saturday, February 9, 2008

Discipline of Good Deeds


I personally have never thought of doing God's work as 'good deeds.' However Barbara gracefully showed me that they are submission's industry. So if we have been working on submitting we can tie this chapter right in.
Would it not be wonderful to be known for service? We all see people around us who are like this. Always ready to do something for others. Not to mention going out of their way to assist. Here are some things to keep in mind-
Our appearance- Dressing for the occasion. Not shabby but also not appearing too 'classy' to serve.
Our means- Using our recourses. Money, talents, knowledge. Anything that could be of help.
Our purpose- For the 'sake' of the church. For the 'sake' of the world! For God's glory.
Jesus has us perfectly supplied to do good things for everyone. Not only is this for His glory but for our own mind. If we are thinking about others, how can we think about ourselves?
I don't know about you but there are a few people I would not be inclined to shower my goodness on.
Now what? Yes, change of heart. But how?
I read the coolest thing. Write down all the things you would do for someone who you really desired to help.
1-Bake cookies
2-Ask them over for coffee
3-Offer to babysit And so on.
I think first we must decide who it is that we would NEVER do this for. Our neighbors? Co-workers? Friends? Family?
This woman Linda made a list almost like the one above. Gradually she did each thing and was blown away by the response she received. Her judgment had shadowed the truth. The family she served and got to know was indeed going through hard times. However Linda pushing away her pride made for a very special relationship. A year later Linda was crying not because of something these people had done but because they were moving out of state.
Notice how God blessed both sides of the story! Do we ever think well I'm going through so much right now I just can't serve anyone? I never thought about the fact that I'm feeding my own soul by doing the work of God.
We have so many privileges. So much to be thankful for. And because of that the opportunities are endless.
XoXo
Faith Mae

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Discipline of Perseverance


'Rooted confidence in the Lord.'

I think we all know that suffering through hard times is how we acquire most of our perseverance. But why suffering? I think maybe it spreads the Gospel more efficiently than we realize.

I don't know about you guys but I would never be where I am today without the countless things we have gone through. And you know what? I could not be more grateful.

I feel it even now. When things are just always difficult, or I have to do something I don't want to. Those are the times when I look to Christ for protection, and for courage!

Do you find it hard to go up to someone and just start talking about Jesus? Is it difficult to speak up? Well...before you go forcing yourself to do something you don't even really desire to do, try this. Persevere. Show those around you that you rely on God. Be a light for Him! Then when the time comes we WILL be strong enough.

My mom has been in contact with a family from Australia. Here is a clip of an e-mail sent to her.

"Thank you for the reminder of Gods control in our lives. At times i forget, and try to do things all on my own!!! When will i learn it never works? I really had to rely on Him to get me through the last 6 months, as i couldn’t had survived each day without Him. The medical professionals were constantly telling me the baby wouldn’t survive, or would be quite brain damaged due to the constant bleeding i was experiencing, but he is fine and beautiful. It is often in most difficult times we turn to Him, but look to ourselves when things are going well again."

How amazing! When God gives us blessings it is wonderful to be able to give Him thanks.

However, that is not always the case. Today I found out that a couple had been trying to have kids. There first had complications. Their second was premature. Their third almost didn't make it. Eight months ago or so they found out that a new baby was coming! Friends and family prepared and the excitement grew. Miraculously the baby was completely normal! thirty three weeks into her pregnancy the child died. I'm not sure how the family is doing but I can tell you that without perseverance they might as well give up. There must be such devastation! They finally see a sign of healthy birth and it is taken away.

Years from now their response to others going through worse troubles will be a treasure sent from Jesus. It will be the Gospel shining from them. I only wish I could do something like that.


XoXo

Faith Mae



Monday, January 14, 2008

Discipline of Propriety


Okay...wow. "Propriety-behaving in ways appropriate." Y.E.A.H right. I wish I was proper. Unfortunately I never was ambitious to be a 'lady.' Well now it has caught up with me in more ways than one. The first thing mentioned in the book was dealing with the heart. Why am I the way I am? Not such a dumb question after all. I think if we search deeper we will find out that rebellion against God is the issue here. Immodesty, gossip and harsh words are signs of a callus girl. I don't want to be her! I want others to think well of me, and even in that danger resides.

Barbara reminds us how truly blessed we are to be woman! She tell us to 'celebrate the difference!'

I'm so excited about this! Remember when we were little? Everything was pink or purple. Everything was Pooh Bear, princesses or whatever character was most popular at the time. I realize that we can't be exactly like that anymore but we can try to acquire a certain innocence. In our speech and dress especially.

Another good point I read was being bold but not intimidating. Modest but not baggy and boyish. Proper speech....but be 'real' also.

'The night is nearly over; the day is almost here. So let us put aside the deeds of darkness and put on the armor of light." Romans 13:12

"Allowing the Word of God to assess the thought and attitudes of our hearts is difficult indeed. It is painful, Some of you may be realizing that your heart is sick and that you never found that magic potion to heal it. No matter how hard you try, you cannot do the things you ought to do or even what you want to do. This heart condition is called sin. Many good church woman try to 'be good' without ever truly being converted; they never get a new heart that is inclined to do good. You can develop a refined external civility, but it is impossible to change the source of the problem------your heart. Only God in Christ can do that, and, praise God, He is willing."

XoXo


Faith Mae

Saturday, January 12, 2008

Discipline of Contentment


Many times in life I have found myself in a puddle of sin. When I traced back in my mind it usually ended up starting with discontentment. Desiring more than one has is dangerous territory, or so I found out.


About a year ago I wanted a puppy more than anything. I prepared and saved and planned. God, however had different ideas. I didn't get a dog. Fortunately I was spared from complete disappointment. I found that after all the work I had put into buying a new dog I had lost a precious thing. Contentment. I was so busy fiddling with desire that I destroyed the real point. Which was to enjoy what I had.


Even the surroundings around me tend to be distracting in my relationship with God. Focusing on what happens around us can anger, excite, and certainly depress. I find that if I envelope myself in the Word I become less likely to be in the world.
Becoming a woman is serious business. (= Staying one is ten times harder.
XoXo
Faith Mae

Tuesday, January 8, 2008

Discipline of Mind


This chapter convicted me in an amazing way.




My day is full of interesting things. School, family, reading, cooking, and all sorts of different activities. It is so easy to accept the world.




This book made a fantastic suggestion. Make what your looking for a habit. In this case a pure mind. Television I have found is a dangerous habit. So is the computer. I learn a wealth of information from both however. The truth is that I never really thought about my discipline of mind. besides shielding myself from things I know are sinful. What about the compromise? I realize now that spending uncontrolled time in this media world leads to ungodly compromise!




There is such a thing as 'Christian mental programming.' And I for one definitely do not work on this enough. It is sad how often I go through my day without thinking about what I am exposed to.




When something is important to us, we think about it. What are our minds filled with? Money, internet, friends, self image? It may be our instinct to assume that our 'obsessions' are all wrong. Barbara points out that if we intentionally point our thoughts to God they fall from obsessions to ponderings on Him.




It is difficult to write how important reading and studying the Bible is. The longer I go without it the more untrained my thoughts become. I think once I learn to refuse what I desire I will be able to embrace what God wants in my life. All balanced out.
XoXo
Faith Mae

Friday, January 4, 2008

Discipline of Worship




My memories of worship are precious. So many times I have seen God's plan clearly right then and there as I praised Him. And the other times I have gotten a overwhelming sense of peace and contentment with not knowing what He wants for me. I repeatedly recognize my own sin, gaps in my life, and especially my great love for Jesus Christ! It is so easy to go through the week not worshiping God! I have found that even a devotional time in the morning can be fleeting if I don't make a daily commitment to worship God. I don't necessarily mean turning on the music and dancing around (although that is a wonderful experience) what I am saying is to worship in your actions. In your speech, and even thinking about the indescribable God we serve! It is indeed eye opening when I stop just reading the Bible. When I stop just going to church. When I do it because I am fascinated with this HUGE God who cares so much for us!




It is SO much more than something that comes along with the package Sunday brings!


It takes true discipline to remember what we are doing on Sunday!




"Every woman who calls herself a Christian must understand that worship is the ultimate priority of her life. Worship is what God wants from you and from me----every day."



Are we praising Him everyday? Even when terrible things happen to us? When something really important to us suddenly diminishes are we willing to sit down and praise Him?




Faith Mae


Tuesday, January 1, 2008

Discipline of Prayer


One thing really wonderful about this book is that not only can I apply these things to my life but the next chapter adds to it beautifully! Example being prayer leads to submission with God. It bends our will to His every time we talk to Him!

E. Stanley Jones said-

"If I throw out a boathook from the boat and catch hold of the shore and pull, do I pull the shore to me, or do I pull myself to the shore? Prayer is not pulling God to my will, but the aligning of my will to the will of God."

Barbara reminds us of five interactions we should aim to have with God.

Meditation-

This is not only reading and re-reading the bible it is a verbal commitment to His word. It is taking the scriptures saying them aloud and committing to memory.

Confession-

Although this can take place anytime it is very important to keep it first in devotional time. I find that my pride keeps me from asking forgiveness. However there is NO excuse for un-confessed sin! Hidden sin may come into the light as you study or as you interact with other people. Either way it is vital to include.

Adoration-

Telling God what we treasure about Him is such a precious time! And yet out of all things it is the one I forget the most. "Reverence for God makes us aware of our own humble state."
It is an act of worship and cannot wait till Sunday! Can we adore him enough?

Submission-

Our prayer should result in yielding of every part of ourselves. Our dreams, our worries, our desires, even our sin. Remember that prayer IS worship and prayer IS submission!

Petition-

The four parts above are key in preparing us for this last one. I think the most important thing about petition is continual prayer. If we must ask for something. Then we MUST continue to talk to God. If I need something from a friend I would certainly choose one I had invested in! Not just an acquaintance.

I hope this new year will bring not only a fresh start but especailly a closer more loving realationship with you and your God!!

XOXO

Faith Mae